Eloisa : $b or, A series of original letters — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
Eloisa : $b or, A series of original letters
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
Be it so: he that cannot command felicity may at least deserve it. You
may possibly be obliged to honour with your esteem the man whom you
did not deign to answer. I am young, and may, perchance, one day,
merit the regard of which I am now unworthy. In the mean time, it is
necessary that I should restore to you that repose which I have lost
for ever, and of which you are, by my presence, in spite of myself,
deprived. It is but just that I alone should suffer, since I alone am
guilty. Adieu, too, too charming Eloisa! Resume your tranquillity, and
be again happy. Tomorrow I am gone for ever. But be assured, that my
violent, spotless passion for you, will end only with my life; that my
heart, full of so divine an object, will never debase itself by
admitting a second impression; that it will divide all its future
homage between you and virtue, and that no other flame shall ever
profane the altar where Eloisa was adored.
Billet I. From Eloisa.
Be not too positive in your opinion that your absence is become
necessary. A virtuous heart will overcome its folly, or be silent, and
so might, perhaps, in time----But you----you may stay.
Answer.
I was a long time silent; your cold indifference forced me to speak at
last. Virtue may possibly get the better of folly, but who can bear to
be despised by one they love? I must be gone.
Billet II. From Eloisa.
No, Sir; after what you have seemed to feel; after what you have dared
to tell me; a man, such as you feign yourself, will not fly; he will
do more.
Answer.
I have feigned nothing except the _moderate_ passion of a heart filled
with despair. To-morrow you shall be satisfied; and notwithstanding
all you can say, the effort will be less painful than to fly from you.
Billet III. From Eloisa.
Foolish youth! if my life be dear to thee, do not dare to attempt thy
own. I am beset, and can neither speak nor write to you till to-
morrow. Wait.
Letter IV. From Eloisa.
Must I then, at last, confess, the fatal, the ill-disguised, secret!
How often have I sworn that it should never burst from my heart but
with my life! Thy danger wrests it from me. It is gone, and my honour
is lost for ever. Alas, I have but too religiously performed my vow;
can there be a death more cruel than to survive one’s honour?