Backwater : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 2 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Backwater : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 2
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“I go; I see you again in a year,” said Max suddenly, drawing up near
the door where Mrs. Henderson stood sipping coffee with Sarah and
Bennett.
“Where is Burton?” he asked in the midst of his thanks and leave-taking.
They all hesitated. Miriam suddenly found herself in the presence of a
tribunal.
Bennett’s careless “Oh, he’s gone; couldn’t stay,” followed her as she
flung upstairs to Meg Wedderburn’s empty room. Why had her mother looked
so self-conscious and Sarah avoided her eye ... standing there like a
little group of conspirators.
People were always inventing things. “Bother--damnational silliness,”
she muttered, and began rapidly calculating. Ted gone away. Little Ted
hurt and angry. To-morrow. Perhaps he wouldn’t come. If he didn’t she
wouldn’t see him before she went. The quiet little bead of ruby shaded
gas reproached her. Meg’s eyes would be sad and reproachful in this
quiet neatness. Terror seized her. She wouldn’t see him. He had finished
his work at the Institution. It was the big Norwich job next week.
CHAPTER III
1
Miriam propped “The Story of Adèle” open against the three Bibles on the
dressing-table. It would be wasteful to read it upstairs. It was the
only story-book amongst the rows of volumes which filled the shelves in
the big schoolroom and would have to last her for tea-time reading the
whole term. The “Fleurs de l’Eloquence?” Shiny brown leather covered
with little gold buds and tendrils, fresh and new although the parchment
pages were yellow with age. The Fleurs were so short ... that curious
page signed “Froissart” with long s’s, coming to an end just as the
picture of the French court was getting clear and interesting. That
other thing, “The Anatomy of Melancholy.” Fascinating. But it would take
so much reading, on and on forgetting everything; all the ordinary
things, seeing things in some new way, some way that fascinated people
for a moment if you tried to talk about it and then made them very
angry, made them hate and suspect you. Impossible to take it out and
have it on the schoolroom table for tea-time reading. What had made the
Pernes begin allowing tea-time reading? Being shy and finding it
difficult to keep conversation going with the girls for so long? They
never did talk to the girls. Perhaps because they did not see through
them and understand them. North London girls. So different from the
Fairchild family and the sort of girls they had been accustomed to when
they were young. Anyhow, they hardly ever had to talk to them. Not at
breakfast or dinner-time when they were all three there; and at tea-time
when there was only one of them, there were always the books. How
sensible. On Sunday afternoons, coming smiling into the schoolroom, one
of them each Sunday--perhaps the others were asleep--reading aloud; the
Fairchild family, smooth and good and happy, everyone in the book