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“Marguerite,” he said, “you must not be surprised if M. Duval says
nothing: you overwhelm him to such a degree that he can not find a word
to say.”
“I should say, on the contrary, that he has only come with you because
it would have bored you to come here by yourself.”
“If that were true,” I said, “I should not have begged Ernest to ask
your permission to introduce me.”
“Perhaps that was only in order to put off the fatal moment.”
However little one may have known women like Marguerite, one can not
but know the delight they take in pretending to be witty and in teasing
the people whom they meet for the first time. It is no doubt a return
for the humiliations which they often have to submit to on the part of
those whom they see every day.
To answer them properly, one requires a certain knack, and I had not
had the opportunity of acquiring it; besides, the idea that I had
formed of Marguerite accentuated the effects of her mockery. Nothing
that came from her was indifferent to me. I rose to my feet, saying in
an altered voice, which I could not entirely control:
“If that is what you think of me, madame, I have only to ask your
pardon for my indiscretion, and to take leave of you with the assurance
that it shall not occur again.”
Thereupon I bowed and quitted the box. I had scarcely closed the door
when I heard a third peal of laughter. It would not have been well for
anybody who had elbowed me at that moment.
I returned to my seat. The signal for raising the curtain was given.
Ernest came back to his place beside me.
“What a way you behaved!” he said, as he sat down. “They will think you
are mad.”
“What did Marguerite say after I had gone?”
“She laughed, and said she had never seen anyone so funny. But don’t
look upon it as a lost chance; only do not do these women the honour of
taking them seriously. They do not know what politeness and ceremony
are. It is as if you were to offer perfumes to dogs—they would think it
smelled bad, and go and roll in the gutter.”
“After all, what does it matter to me?” I said, affecting to speak in a
nonchalant way. “I shall never see this woman again, and if I liked her
before meeting her, it is quite different now that I know her.”
“Bah! I don’t despair of seeing you one day at the back of her box, and
of hearing that you are ruining yourself for her. However, you are
right, she hasn’t been well brought up; but she would be a charming
mistress to have.”
Happily, the curtain rose and my friend was silent. I could not
possibly tell you what they were acting. All that I remember is that
from time to time I raised my eyes to the box I had quitted so
abruptly, and that the faces of fresh visitors succeeded one another
all the time.