Camille (La Dame aux Camilias) — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Camille (La Dame aux Camilias)
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In this girl there was at once the virgin whom a mere nothing had
turned into a courtesan, and the courtesan whom a mere nothing would
have turned into the most loving and the purest of virgins. Marguerite
had still pride and independence, two sentiments which, if they are
wounded, can be the equivalent of a sense of shame. I did not speak a
word; my soul seemed to have passed into my heart and my heart into my
eyes.
“So,” said she all at once, “it was you who came to inquire after me
when I was ill?”
“Yes.”
“Do you know, it was quite splendid of you! How can I thank you for
it?”
“By allowing me to come and see you from time to time.”
“As often as you like, from five to six, and from eleven to twelve.
Now, Gaston, play the Invitation à la Valse.”
“Why?”
“To please me, first of all, and then because I never can manage to
play it myself.”
“What part do you find difficult?”
“The third part, the part in sharps.”
Gaston rose and went to the piano, and began to play the wonderful
melody of Weber, the music of which stood open before him.
Marguerite, resting one hand on the piano, followed every note on the
music, accompanying it in a low voice, and when Gaston had come to the
passage which she had mentioned to him, she sang out, running her
fingers along the top of the piano:
“Do, re, mi, do, re, fa, mi, re; that is what I can not do. Over
again.”
Gaston began over again, after which Marguerite said:
“Now, let me try.”
She took her place and began to play; but her rebellious fingers always
came to grief over one of the notes.
“Isn’t it incredible,” she said, exactly like a child, “that I can not
succeed in playing that passage? Would you believe that I sometimes
spend two hours of the morning over it? And when I think that that
idiot of a count plays it without his music, and beautifully, I really
believe it is that that makes me so furious with him.” And she began
again, always with the same result.
“The devil take Weber, music, and pianos!” she cried, throwing the
music to the other end of the room. “How can I play eight sharps one
after another?” She folded her arms and looked at us, stamping her
foot. The blood flew to her cheeks, and her lips half opened in a
slight cough.
“Come, come,” said Prudence, who had taken off her hat and was
smoothing her hair before the glass, “you will work yourself into a
rage and do yourself harm. Better come and have supper; for my part, I
am dying of hunger.”
Marguerite rang the bell, sat down to the piano again, and began to hum
over a very risky song, which she accompanied without difficulty.
Gaston knew the song, and they gave a sort of duet.
“Don’t sing those beastly things,” I said to Marguerite, imploringly.
“Oh, how proper you are!” she said, smiling and giving me her hand. “It
is not for myself, but for you.”
Marguerite made a gesture as if to say, “Oh, it is long since that I
have done with propriety!” At that moment Nanine appeared.