Loved you better than you knew — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Loved you better than you knew
John Stuart Mill · en
The lady might have been thirty-five or more, but she possessed that
charm of beauty that always suggests youth--perfect features, a
complexion fresh as the morning; large, tender eyes of the brightest
blue, and abundant tresses of shining golden brown hair, while a
mouth like Cupid’s bow in form, and crimson as a rose, revealed in a
dazzling smile small pearly white teeth, that added the last charm to
her winsome loveliness.
Cinthia gazed fixedly at that winning face, drew a long breath of
emotion, and instantly became captive to beauty’s bow and spear.
She was irresistibly drawn to the graceful woman whose sweet, silvery
voice sounded like music in her ears as she exclaimed:
“You are in trouble, dear; I feel it, see it in your pale face and sad
eyes. I hear it in the anguish of your voice. And you are alone, you
say! Then I dare not go away and leave you like this, lest harm befall
you. Let me help you!”
“No one can help me,” Cinthia answered in stubborn despair; but all
the while that voice and smile were thrilling her heart with subtle
tenderness.
“Then the case must indeed be serious,” cried the lady, gently slipping
her arm around Cinthia’s waist, moved by an impulse she scarcely
understood herself; while she continued, gently:
“My heart aches for your sorrow, dear, and although we are strangers
to each other, I long to comfort you. Confide in me, and perhaps I
can help you. Is it a question of lack of means? Or, sadder still,
of--love?”
“Of love!” burst out Cinthia; and she dropped her head on that silken
shoulder in a passionate outburst of tears, won in spite of herself by
the divine art of sympathy.
And then, since both were strangely, magnetically attracted to each
other, it was not hard for her to draw from Cinthia the brief, sad
story of her life and love down to the very moment when she had opened
the door to fly out into the street with the half-formed plan of
suicide yet in her mind.
Oh, what a pathetic, moving story it was! And how it touched the
listener’s tender heart, moving her to tears!
She could sympathize with all that Cinthia told her, and could share in
her resentment against her unloving father, her strict aunt, and the
lover whose affection had not been proof against the schemes of his
proud mother. To her eyes, as to Cinthia’s, it all looked as if Mrs.
Varian and Everard Dawn had made of the hapless lovers a sacrifice to a
family feud vaguely hinted at in the lady’s confession to Cinthia, that
her mother had been her bitterest enemy and was unforgiven in her grave.
With all her heart she espoused Cinthia’s side, and freely expressed
contempt for Arthur’s part in the girl’s sorrow.
“He has acted the part of a coward, forsaking you thus at the command
of his haughty mother, and I would think no more of him, dear, for he
is not worth it,” she exclaimed, warmly.
Cinthia only sighed. She did not believe now that she could ever put
Arthur out of her thoughts.