Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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The long lane of Bond Street had come to an end, bringing her out into
the grey-brown spaciousness of Piccadilly, lit sparsely by infrequent
globes of gold. The darkness cast by the massive brown buildings
thrilled heavily about the shrouded oblivion of west-end life. She
passed elderly men, black coated and mufflered over their evening dress,
wrapped in their world, stamped with its stamp, still circulating, like
the well preserved coins of a past reign--thinking their sets of
thoughts, going home to the small encirclement of clubs and chambers, a
little aware of the wide night and the time of year told on the air as
they had passed along where the Green Park slept on the far side of the
road. This was their moment, between today and tomorrow, of freedom to
move amongst the crowding presences gathered through so many years
within themselves; slowly, mannishly; old-mannishly, perpetually pulled
up, daunted, taking refuge in their sets of thoughts; not going far,
never returning to renew a sally, for the way home was short, and their
gait showed them going, almost marching, to the summons of their various
destinations. Some of their faces betrayed as they went by, unconscious
of observation, the preoccupation that closed in on all their solitude;
a look of counting, but with liberal evening hand, the days that
remained for them to go their rounds. One came prowling with slow,
gentlemanly stroll, half-halting to stare at her, dim-eyed, from his
mufflings. Here and there a woman, strayed away from the searching light
and the rivalry of the Circus, hovered in the shadows. Presently, across
the way, the Park moved by, brimming through its railings a midnight
freshness into the dry sophisticated air. Through this strange mingling,
hansoms from the theatres beyond the Circus, swinging, gold-lamped, one
by one, along the centre of the deserted roadway, drew bright threads of
younger west-end life, meshed and tangled, men and women from social
throngs, for whom no solitude waited.
Piccadilly Circus was almost upon her, the need for thoughtless hurrying
across its open spaces; the awakening on the far side with the west-end
dropping away behind; and the tide of her own neighbourhood setting
towards her down Shaftesbury Avenue; bringing with it the present
movement of her London life.... Why hadn't she a club down here; a
neutral territory where she could finish her thoughts undisturbed?