The mill of silence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The mill of silence
John Stuart Mill · en
“Rest, and don’t talk. You’ll be stronger in a bit.”
He closed his eyes again and I tried to shield him as much as I could
from the jolting. I had already wrapped him up warm in some old sacks
that were heaped in a corner of the wagon. So all the way home I held
him, counting his every breath, loving him as I had never done before.
It was dark when we reached the mill and I laid him gently back and
leaped down.
“Dad! Dad!” I shouted, running down the yard and into the house; but
he was already standing at the head of the stairs, with a candle in
his hand.
“Modred’s had an accident!” I cried, in a subdued voice--I could not
keep the lie back. It seemed so dreadful at the outset to confess and
stand aside condemned--while others helped. Jason and Zyp came out on
the landing and my father ran down the stairs hurriedly.
“What’s that?” he said--“Modred!”
“He got caught in the weeds and was nearly drowned, but he’s getting
better.”
“Where is he?” He seized me by the arm as he spoke, and dragged me to
the mill door. I could feel the pulses in his finger tips through my
coat.
“He’s in a wain outside, and I promised the man a long drink for
bringing us home.”
“There’s a full bottle in the cupboard--bring it down,” shouted my
father to Jason. Then he hurried to the wagon and lifted out the
breathing figure and looked into its face. After all, it was his
youngest.
“Not much harm, perhaps,” said he. “Run and tell them to heat some
water and the blankets.”
While I was finding old Peg and explaining and giving the order, they
carried him upstairs. I did not dare follow them, but, the reaction
over, leaned, feeling sick and faint, in the passage outside the
little kitchen. Perhaps even now he was telling them, and I dreaded
more than I can describe the sentence which a first look at any one of
their faces might confirm.
Presently old Peg came out to me with a can of boiling water and flung
an armful of warm blankets over my shoulder.
“There’s for you, Renalt,” she cried in her thin, rusty voice; then
muttered, clawing her hips like a monkey: “’Tis flying in the Lord’s
face o’ Providence, to me a old woman; like as restoring a froze snake
on the hearth.”
I had no heart for retort, but sped from the sinister old witch with
my burden. I saw Zyp and Jason in the living-room as I passed, but,
though they called to me, I ran on and upstairs to the door of
Modred’s room, which was next ours.
My father came out to my knock and took the things from me.
“Now,” said he, “I want nobody here but myself and Dr. Crackenthorpe.
Go you and fetch him, if he’s to be found.”
Happy to be employed in any useful service, I hurried away on my
errand. The door of the sitting-room was shut, at which I was glad.
Very little respite gave me fresh lease of hope.
The doctor’s home was close by, in a straggling street of old
buildings that ran off our end of the High street, and the doctor
himself was, I was told, within.