The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
"I am going back with you when you leave. I have to make the
acquaintance of your people. That is a necessary preliminary.
Afterwards we will speed matters, and get married without undue delay.
There isn't any object in waiting, is there? I don't feel that I can
wait. I want you so."
"I'll have to resign my position as music teacher," she said. "There is
nothing else to consider. You know, I can't quite realise it yet. It
all seems so strange and wonderful."
"It is wonderful," he answered gravely. "It's wonderful to me that you
should love me. It seems more wonderful still that you trust me. Your
belief in me has been more helpful than any sermon. It is a sermon.
It's a sort of religion. I've leaned on you... you little thing, whom I
could pick up and toss over my shoulder! Dear, you'll never know how
much I love you. I can't put it into words."
She squeezed his hand understandingly. It was the same with her. She
could never have told him all that was in her heart.
"There isn't any need for words," she said softly.
"No." He looked at her quickly. "You do understand," he said. "You've
always understood. From the first we seemed to strike the same thoughts
instinctively. We get at one another somehow. I feel as if I had known
you all my life."
"And I," she answered with a shy little laugh, "feel that I am only
beginning to know you. Each time I am with you something fresh and
unexpected leaps to the surface, and I've got to start again from the
beginning and reconstruct all my ideas of you. I wonder if it will
always be like that?"
"You will find me consistent in one respect anyhow," he answered.
He drew her into the shadow of some trees towards which their steps had
been directed, and came to a halt facing her, and dropped her hand and
put his arms around her.
"Now..." he said.
He held her closely and for the first time kissed her lips.
Book 2--CHAPTER NINETEEN.
Esme was married from her sister's house very quietly, and with what
Rose considered quite unnecessary haste. The whole affair was so sudden
and so altogether unexpected that she scarcely knew whether to be the
more pleased or the more dismayed by her sister's change of fortune.
She never felt quite at ease with her future brother-in-law, and in her
heart she regretted that it was not George Sinclair upon whom Esme's
choice had fallen. Marriage with Hallam meant a more complete
separation from the old life: it would remove the girl altogether from
her former associations. While she recognised the worldly advantages of
the match she resented this: had Esme married Sinclair they would have
continued in touch with one another. But Hallam intended making his
home in Cape Town, in one of the suburbs, after a prolonged honeymoon
spent in Europe. The honeymoon, she gathered, would extend over a year.
It was all very amazing and rather wonderful. And Esme appeared to be
supremely happy; that, after all, was the chief thing.