The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
With the disappearance of the native woman a sudden feeling of
loneliness came over her, stayed with her, despite the brightness of the
day and the sense of returning health which came to her in the wonderful
lightness and purity of the air. She walked a little further, to where
a curve in the road brought her to a belt of trees which threw a
pleasing shade across the path. She halted in the shade and looked
about her with inquiring gaze.
It was very beautiful here, and restful, and the air was fragrant with
the pungent scent of the mimosa blossoms. She gathered a branch of the
flowers and thrust some of them in her belt. Looking upward at the road
she had travelled she saw that the descent was greater than she had
imagined; the return would necessitate a steady climb.
She rested for a while, leaning against one of the trees, idly watching
the play of sunlight through the branches. The shadows of the trees lay
along the road in grotesque shapes. The brooding stillness of the day,
the brightness and the warmth, were soothing: but the feeling of
loneliness deepened; there was something a little awe-inspiring in the
general hush. And then, with an abruptness that startled her, a sound
struck upon her ears, a sound that was not loud but which was curiously
audible in the silence. It was the sound of footsteps crunching upon
the road. The figure of a man appeared round the bend and came on
quickly, his footstep beating in measured muffled rhythm in the dust.
He was quite close to her before he saw her; when he caught sight of her
he hesitated for a second; it looked as though he contemplated beating a
retreat. Then, coming apparently to a decision, he walked on. When he
was abreast of her he raised his hat.
Esme regarded him curiously. It was the man whose seat was next hers at
table, the man whose personality had arrested her attention, in whom she
felt unaccountably interested. He carried a stick, which he used
occasionally to walk with and more frequently to strike with at the
grass which bordered the roadside. He carried it as a man carries
something from which he derives a sense of companionship. It was all
the companionship he ever had upon his walks.
"Good-morning," the girl said in response to his mute salutation; and
added, after a barely perceptible pause: "It is glorious, the air up
here."
"Yes," he said, and halted irresolutely.
She believed that he resented, not only her speaking to him, but her
presence there. He resented neither; but he felt averse from beginning
an acquaintance which, once started, it would be impossible to draw back
from, and which he foresaw might develop into something of very deep
significance. Instinctively he feared this acquaintance. But courtesy
demanded some response from him; he made it reluctantly and in a manner
which did not encourage her to persevere.
"You are an early riser," he said. "Usually at this hour I have the day
to myself."