The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8
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“Yes,” said Miriam in cheerful conversational voice, and at once felt
its irrelevance. She had answered only the tone. In the actual
communication there was a fresh source of division. She loved rattling
windows; loved, loved them. Anything the wind could do, especially at
night. The window was old. It would certainly rattle: perhaps bump and
bang. It would be better even than the small squeak, squeak, of the
small lattice at Tansley Street. And with each sound she would be aware
of Miss Holland, disliking it.
“I can’t _abide_ rattling windows,” said Miss Holland, vindictively.
“I love them.”
“What a strange taste,” said Miss Holland ruefully, and immediately
laughed her tinkling laugh. They laughed together, and began moving more
briskly, creating a cheerful noise to emphasise small jests. Again and
again Miss Holland’s laugh sounded. She was happy and pleased. How
embarrassing it would have been, Miriam reflected, if the last stage of
the toilet had presented itself without this cover of bright sound. The
trial once happily over, was over for good.
She sat on her pillow and slid down carefully into the freshness of the
new bed. Its compactness was not disturbed. Her things were all out of
sight. The room about her was exactly as it had been when freshly
arranged.
“Oh,” she cried, listening to the pleasant bumping of the window as her
body relaxed on the unyielding level of the new mattress and the low
pillow fitted itself to her neck. “Oh, music that softlier on the spirit
lies——”
“I hope you are not alluding to the window,” chuckled Miss Holland.
“Oh, my bed, my angelic little bed. I thought it might seem narrow, but
it is so hard and flat that I feel as if I were lying on the plane of
the ecliptic with no sides. And I seem so long. I can see myself like
someone laid out.”
“What a very dismal idea!”
“Oh, no. I always think of it when I sleep in beds that don’t let you
down. It doesn’t depress me a bit. You see, I have no imagination. But
my bed at Tansley Street was all hummocks. There was only one way I
could lie at all and I made no shape. Now I feel like a crusader on a
tomb, and utterly comfortable. And the little light coming through the
curtain from your side makes a quite perfect effect, a green twilight.”
“You shall enjoy the perfect effect for a few moments longer. I am going
to wedge that abominable window.”