The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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Upstairs she found herself eagerly tearing open the letter.... "I've
just heard from an old schoolfellow" she heard herself saying to the
girls in Kennett Street. There was something exciting in the letter ...
at the end Alma Wilson (officially Mrs. G. Wilson) ... strange people in
the room ... Alma amongst them; looking out from amongst dreadfulness.
_Married._ She had gone in amongst the crowd already--forever. How
clever of her ... deceitful ... that little spark of Alma in her must
have been deceitful ... sly, at some moment. Alma's eyes glanced at her
with a new more preoccupied and covered look ... she used to go
sometimes to theatres with large parties of people with money and the
usual dresses who never thought anything about anything ... perhaps that
was part of the reason, perhaps Alma was more that than she had thought
... marrying in the sort of way she went to theatre-parties--clever. The
letter was full of excitement ... Alma leaping up from her marriage and
clutching at her ... not really married; dancing to some tune in some
usual way like all those women and jumping up in a way that fizzled and
could not be kept up....
"You dear old thing! ... fell out of the sky this morning ... to fill
pages with 'you dear old thing!' ... see you at _once_! _Immediately!_
... come up to town and meet you ... some sequestered tea-shop ... our
ancient heads together ... tell you all that has happened to me since
those days ... next Thursday ... let you know how really really rejoiced
I am ... break the very elderly fact that I am married ... but that
makes no difference...." That would not be so bad--seeing Alma alone in
a tea shop in the west end; in a part of the new life, that would be all
right; nothing need happen, nothing would be touched, "all I have had
the temerity to do ..." what did that mean?
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